I was asked lately, “how’s the book coming?” I immediately felt a bit anxious and hurried. Not by the dear friend who was genuinely interested because she asked in such love, care and concern. I felt this anxiety because I wanted to be able to say something different. I often want to rush the project of compiling the book, “Leah’s Legacy”. I need to be reminded that God has given this project to me and He has a plan and a purpose. He has an end in mind for what He wants to accomplish.
In the same way I want to rush the book, I want to rush through this process we call grief. I haven’t blogged lately because I felt I haven’t had anything of purpose to say. The confirmation that came to me this morning motivated me to blog once again. We have just finished a two-week time with Leah’s son, Jansen. Jansen celebrated his fourth birthday while we were there. It was a joyous time. However, in the joy I was reminded of the pain in knowing the things our Leah is missing in being absent. I do know she truly isn’t “missing” anything as she celebrates daily in the presence of her Lord, Jesus Christ. It’s more that I am missing seeing her enjoy her little man as he grows and matures into a little boy and as God wills, into a young man and then an adult.
With this pain and thought in mind I share this morning. “To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:” (Eccl. 3:1). Upon arriving to visit this dear friend this week I was asked about “the book”. I knew when she asked it was not to get a particular answer. She asked because she was genuinely interested and cares. The anxiety I felt was my own.
All this, to bring me to the reminded reasoning that God is in control. He began this work and He will bring it to completion in His time. I have loved all the letters (now 51) received for Jansen to be included in the book. However, there are a few that I want to see from those who were so vital to Leah’s life and love for God. I hadn’t received those letters and I was hoping and praying God would prompt them to send their contribution. This morning, one of those letters came. It is a letter from Leah’s Youth Pastor. Along with the letter for Jansen, he sent a message given at her graduation and the program of that special day. I am so encouraged that he was able to articulate the words to share. He expressed his regret and apologizes that his letter was “tardy”. I reassured him it wasn’t tardy, but in God’s perfect timing.
When we become discouraged in the waiting, God somehow comes along side us with the encouragement of HIs Word, His Spirit, and then at time His children. Be encouraged with me in the journey and in the hope that endures in the dry times until the moist dew of Heaven once again appears. God bless….until next time.